I'm a fat girl, and that's okay.

I was just sitting at my kitchen table because I'm retraining myself to only eat at the table so I don't feel like shoving food in my face every time I sit down to watch a movie. I was getting down to my last few bites of tuna and capers on toast and I got really sad. I was sad because eating makes me happy and my dinner was almost gone. Then I thought "you know what else makes you happy, bird? Knitting, and reading, and million other things." Then I realized that I would be just as happy doing any number of other things, other than continuously shoving too much food in my face, that are way more productive and healthy than eating twice as much as I need to.

Re-programming one's self takes a lot of work, and a lot of time, and a lot of dedication, but it'll be worth it.

Some of the things I can do other than over-eating:
Knitting
Reading
Journaling
Cuddling my cat
Looking at fine china sets on ebay
Looking at vintage coffee makers on ebay
Looking at pretty much anything on ebay
Watching YouTube cooking shows
Crocheting
Starting that afghan i've got planned in my head
Doing my hula workout video
Yoga...oh it feels so good
Embroidery
Listening to podcasts
Talking to my friends
Looking through my cookbook collection
Looking at cookbooks on Amazon and putting them on my wish list even though I'm not ever going to buy any of them (cause that's how I roll)
Putting grandma's recipe collection into my Living Cookbook program
Watching a movie
Designing a sweater
Taking a craftsy class
Drawing, painting, sketching, doodling
Cleaning my dirty dirty house (even though the act itself is not so great, a clean house would make me really happy)